Not so shocking news...
Well, I suppose it was bound to happen. R and I are filing for divorce. We have been trying too hard to pretend that things are fine, when they just aren't.
Judging by the men that were attracted to me during our seperation, I will be alone forever (LOL) but that way I can live the way I need to, for me, and not trying to always live someone else's life. It was wearing me out trying to live my life to make sure R is always happy...
At my sister's wedding today, I looked around at the men at the wedding, and I looked at R, and he embarrassed me... he's just not ... something... I don't know what it is... hes not responsible, he has no confidence whatsoever, he has no ambition, no drive... I always tell people if he was anymore laid back he'd be dead... I want to be with a man I can respect....
I think maybe I just need to be by myself... maybe I was meant to be alone... whatever, I just know that R is not what I need, no matter how hard I try to fit that mold I just don't...
Judging by the men that were attracted to me during our seperation, I will be alone forever (LOL) but that way I can live the way I need to, for me, and not trying to always live someone else's life. It was wearing me out trying to live my life to make sure R is always happy...
At my sister's wedding today, I looked around at the men at the wedding, and I looked at R, and he embarrassed me... he's just not ... something... I don't know what it is... hes not responsible, he has no confidence whatsoever, he has no ambition, no drive... I always tell people if he was anymore laid back he'd be dead... I want to be with a man I can respect....
I think maybe I just need to be by myself... maybe I was meant to be alone... whatever, I just know that R is not what I need, no matter how hard I try to fit that mold I just don't...
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Hi! I too am alone and wouldn't have it any other way. I am so accustomed to be alone and liking it that I don't know if I could live with a man again.
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